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Monday, November 30, 2009

Begin again.

I have been trying to decide what to do with the space. I have been putting off doing anything here in hopes that I was going to get around designing my own theme, as I have been a WordPress user for quite awhile and understand a little bit about how it works under the hood. This has lead me to a bit of a realization that is both terrifying and liberating.

I have always fancied myself a bit of a Jack of All trades. I am a firm believer that I have the ability to do whatever I set my mind to. This adaptability is something I hope I never lose, as I think that I am constantly in the process of rediscovering myself. However can I really say I am rediscovering myself? Have I ever actually even discovered myself for the first time? The older I get the closer I get to a definite answer to these questions. Unfortunately, the answer is an emphatic “I really don’t know”.

What it has boiled down to here is that I must admit to myself that I am  not a designer. I like design. I think fonts are cute. I recently used the word “kern” is a sentence and didn’t get filleted by the designed I was talking to. I have even dabbled around with it for years, but I don’t think that I have the eye for it. I can design something that may eventually even look nice, but I am discovering that the effort I  have to put into it these things is not worth the time it costs. This has lead to one of the biggest realizations of my life.

The problem that I have with my can do attitude, I have discovered, is that I haven’t the foggiest idea of what I actually want be doing. I have so many projects in my queue that I can’t seem to get much accomplished.  I have to start limiting myself and I am beginning this website anew with hopes that it gives me a place to focus.  I will try to narrow my energies (the ones not devoted to paying my rent, and loving my beautiful wife and lovely children) on these subjects here.

  • Computers and Programming
  • The Outdoors (Hiking and Camping specifically)
  • Making (the disassembling and/or reassembling of things and stuff)
  • Food and Drink.
  • Literature/Journalism

Subsequent posts will talk about why I chose these subjects, this is probably more for my benefit than yours.

posted by Matthew at 4:50 pm  

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